When I started this blog, I fully intended on posting about the pursuit of peace in my life. This is because for months I have been completely surrounded by stress and chaos. I created a business in 2007 to support and feed my family, I signed one of the worst business deals of my life with two people that following year which led to my business being resold and me becoming merely an employee of the business I created rather than an owner. (This is not in reference to any news station, my time with local news stations have been very beneficial for myself and the business).
My business was bought out last year and new ownership took over. I’ve spent the last 9 months being lied about, falsely accused and had the unfortunate experience of watching my business being taken from me and those who worked the hardest for its success.
I lost my business via a phone call in my kitchen.
Someone I do not know posted online “I’m sure she got a great severance deal, I wouldn’t worry about her.” No, there were no deals. I was not paid a dime past the day I was fired, I was not paid my unused vacation, I was not even paid the earned commission from the past year. Nothing. In fact, I didn’t even get back my personal belongings from my office. I got nothing more than a goodbye and a letter from a lawyer.
It is amazing what a lie can do.
I do not know the people who hate me so much that they would lie to destroy me, but I do know the people who believed it. And, I’ll admit, I never saw that coming.
When I first heard the lies, I dismissed them immediately. I could not even imagine someone believing those things. I was naive and stupid. I had no idea that there are people who get pure joy out of destroying other people. I guess I just don’t think like that.
That lie has cost more than $20,000 in legal fees during the last few months. In October, I began having severe abdominal pain and have been in and out of the hospital ever since. I have lost nearly 30 pounds, have over $10,000 in medical bills and managed to somehow begin having panic attacks at least twice a day.
That lie has cost me a lot.
A lie. Something that is not true made up by someone I really don’t even know.
I have lived in this stress for months and months now, dealing with the aftermath of someone else’s hate.
And, for my own well-being (and the risk of being cheesy), I thought I’d say something today.
I’ve been silent this entire time but I do have one thing to say to all of those who have hated, destroyed, falsely accused and lied. I am done. I will not let you control my life. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that my God is bigger than you. He is bigger than your lies. He is bigger than your hate. And, I know, God has a hope, a plan and a future for me.
The time of letting you control my mind and my life has come to an end.
God put dreams and passion in my heart so many years ago and you will not take that from me. Though you come at me with lies, destruction and hate, I come at you as David did to Goliath in the name of the Lord our God.
I’m not giving up. I am not giving in. I will fight to have the life God has promised to me and I will walk in the peace of God.
I’m not going to let you mess with me anymore. I have children to raise, a path to follow and you will not hold me back. Lies from strangers will not hold me back anymore.
Goodbye, haters. I’m over you.
Money Saving Queen, 918 Coupon Queen, Tulsa’s Coupon Queen, Mother of Two Beautiful Boys and Follower of TRUTH.
Sarah Ann is an author, speaker and media personality committed to honesty, vulnerability and authenticity. She has a passion for empowering people who are willing to be honest and walk out life in Christ together. Sarah holds a Bachelors in Biblical Studies and a Masters in Theology and Apologetics, she also owns a clothing company, Ascent516.com and is the creator of SarahAnnSpeaks.com and the Sarah Ann Speaks Podcast. Sarah is featured daily on GEB TV.